Thursday, April 1, 2010
I'm shall start complaining..I mean.. Thats it man..
Everybody is going crazy. When can i ever say ''shut up people, i had enough of everything''.
NEVER!
They just don't understand what life is.
COME ON! Be practical!
Definitely with ups and downs yeah, stress and problems everywhere, yes.
I tolerated and gone through everything, and i just wanna give up.
I just seem to not want to give in at all.
I thought i finally know what is ''happiness'', but i was wrong.
I still don't know its true meaning.
I thought it was just doing something i like, and having something i love that gives me happiness.
I went home, it changed. Even though i had my favourite ice-cream today, listening to music, and playing my lovely instrument.
Its so complicated i don't know whether to laugh, cry or scream.
I've lost my emotions, how to express them out.
Blogging is the only way whereby i could express them out in a mild and intelligible way lahh!!
You may not be able to understand if i tell you the whole story.
It doesn't make sense because my life is so screwed up. Really a lot.
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Did really badly for Chinese paper, last position in my A class.
Such a disgrace.
From sec1 & 2 A2 drop to some shit C5 and C6
Everything to me is just like so irritating and annoying.
I seriously want to screw my life up by hating everybody around me.
This word ''hatred'' is just like everywhere around me, no matter how much i try to let it go away.
I can't stand my junior anymore!
I regret saying that i did the right choice not giving up on her, and treating her so nicely with patient and that their mindset can be changed. I REGRET!!
No matter how good i treat them or whatever shit! THey don't get it!
ITs their mindset, and its SHITTY SHITTY SHITTY OKAY!!
Its her problem that she don't want to learn, and i tried my best.
I am not her only senior, i do not want to take the blame that i did not do a good job teaching.
Even though i taught her everything i know, she don't give a shit appreciation for it, and treating me like some idiotic senior with no respect at all.
You all have no right to put THE BLAME ON ME OKAY! YOU SEE FOR YOURSELF!
I got so many band stuff to handle, performances, sec1s learning, drills, workshops, everything, logistics, namelist, music wise, spreading of messages,& librarians!
WTH!!!
I got this reason why i do not have time to teach her, and i even send out some shit messages to tell her im willing to take my time out to teach her out of band.
Come one, why am i like begging her to learn? its her problem!
She just gave a shit of nonsense, and then go look for the counselor telling her its all our fault..
Seriously, i am not going to care about her anymore or the section.
Let it die, seriously.
