I'm waiting for a miracle to happen.

Monday, August 31, 2009

Please, I beg you.. Don't fill my life with Hatred and lost of Hopes..

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Happy Teacher's Day!!

Slept at 12am last night.. Figuring out how to do my math homework.. x_x
Super glad that there won't be lessons today..
Celebrations for the whole day.
ACES Day work out was the most fun one..
Love the Algorithm March! Haha..

Went for the Career Talk. I chose Tourism Industry..
It was interesting.. But i can't stand Maywen.. So noisy..
Got to learn more about career choices for the Tourism Industry, and i think i was the only one who asked so many questions..
But i was wondering.. I don't think I can get in Tourism and resort management in Poly..
The aggregate is getting lower and lower every year.. I don't think i can get in, even i have the interest..

Went to hall for celebration.. Performances was okay.. Eventually the Teachers were the one who had entertained us.. Didn't enjoy it.. Got really bored in one of its section.. The MCs didnt do a good job in having the school's attention.. I realise she had been mumbling and talking to herself , and we had got no idea what she's talking about..
I think last year was better.. I got so bored until i attempted to open up my Chinese Workbook to do in one of its section.. =.=

Anyway, performances was great.. Even though playing or singing wasn't so nice or synchronized, it was the effort that they had put in.. Really brave.. (*Clap Clap*)

Anyway, i was damn surprised when May Wen told me that there isn't school tomorrow.. =.=
PAthetic.. I myself don't even know, that made me chiong my homework..
Went for Pizza Hut after school, went back got nagged by mother.. =.=''
Kk, next time no more Pizza Hut for me alr.. T_T

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Thursday, August 27, 2009

Never knew love could be that complicated..

Studied late till 12am ytd night.. Or to say i stayed up late watching the TV??
Oh,Chinese CT was not bad.. I think I can pass, but definitely not an A1. xD
Didnt have enough time to do my thinking and questioning..

Had physics and math tutorial today. Anyway, actually it aren't boring at all.. It's only whether how u look at it as.. I'm really going to die if i don't pass my math.. I did a hard thinking just now.. And that was really TOUGH..
Without math - Can't get into JC
- Won't be able to get into a good course in Poly
- Won't be able to take Tourism course in Poly

Haix, was questioning myself just now.. I can't believe i starved myself just to save $2.
But that was a good start. Went to guardian, wanted to help Ah ma buy medication, but wasn't allowed. I didn't know there was this Singapore law until now.. Sorry ah ma

Anyway, something funny happened that made me laughed out loud today after school.
Yvonne called her mum on phone to ask her to come and fetch her home..
Yvonne called : Where are you?
Me: I'm at Orchard!! I'm at orchard!
Yvonne's mum : I'm at orchard.
Yvonne: LINDA KHOR!!!! WHAT!!??

Omg, don't u think that its like such a coincidence?!! Just at my luck, can't believe her mum is really at orchard..

Tired.. Really gonna buck up for my Common Tests.. and good luck to the sec4s for their prelims..

Expect the people you love to be better. It helps them to become better. But don't get upset when they fail because it helps them to keep trying.
Everybody needs a chance, and i believe..
Cos for now, i believe in miracles.

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Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Colour blind

Nothing much..
Just completed our English CT, i'm afraid that i might fail..
Hope to score well for my summary..
Me and von spend like the whole 2 CD periods playing with maywen's electronic dictionary's Games /Hangman & jumbo.. Well, joyce tan don't even care.. But u can ask me what i've learnt today..
A few english words. XD
What's the difference with Contradiction and Ironic? =D (Check your dictionary)
Anyway, the word for the 1st qn for the ENG CT shld be ''lowly''..
Because ''Riddance'' means a way where u feel good about something missing or gone.
Which doesn't answer to not giving respect.

Anyway, i think that Geog lessons are the only lesson that is fun.. haha
I can't stop criticising Mr Hong for putting his markers onto his mouth while he draws the Meanders with different colors..
I couldn't stop saying.. ''Mr hong!! This is so unhygienic and unglamorous!!'' haha..
(GO to yvonne's Blog For pics)

Having Chinese CT 4 tmr.. So i'm going to be a good girl and go study..

I don't suck up
I don't give a damn to idiots
I don't do it for the sake of my reputation
I am indignant
I don't do sweet talking to others like you
It's very obvious that people favors you because you are so good at talking that it's impossble for them not to get into you.
Just a something from me.. Please be more action orientated.
Actions speaks louder than words
Those people are just blind.. Colour blind..

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Saturday, August 22, 2009

Went for the SSO(Singapore Symphony Orchestra) Concert on Thursday..
A really new experience for all of us.. Haha
It was for The Making of Mahler's Tenth. Symphony No.10. Live recording of 90 minutes.
Thanks to Mr Adrian Chiang that we got to get free tickets for the Concert. Consider it as a bonding time for us -band outing.

That was the first time I saw a Tuba mute with my own eyes.. Cool!!
Wonder if is there such thing as Eupho Mute? haha
French horn players were wonderful.. Oboe and horns had many solo in between the movements.
Perfect balancing of sound. Extremely heavy, dark, and passionate on the Scherzo.
Expresses Gustav Mahler's feelings and emotions as he was composing the tenth and found out that his wife had an affair.. Perfect

Hoping for more concerts together with KRSB! =D
But feel like killing daniel for talking non-stop during the concert and Jon for falling asleep. =.=''

Friday
Friday's lesson is always a short one.
Only remembered walking round the school and finally found a place for sketching and drawing of buildings for Art lesson.
Still have a weird feeling of it.. I don't feel so nice about it. I've already thought through..
I mean, I told him, but what he said.. I have this feeling that he don't mean what he say, and he doesn't want to care. Don't blame him for being angry with me, and reacting this way.

Went for band.. Spoke to Ms Tan yh about the proposals for the band overseas trip. Decided to go for Thailand instead of Hong Kong. thought it might be a good experience and very out of the inside experience. Compared to modern countries like Hong kong and Japan, even though many hopes to go for Hong Kong because of Disney Land. =.=
Chose December for the trip so that the sec4s can join us.. excited for it, so i have to start planning now..

Started on the song Congratulations and Blue Ridge Saga..
1st time is always a bad one.. I guess many of the members still don't really understand ms tan yh's conducting.. Not used to it.. Anyway,she said our band is heartless and Hopeless?
Horrible.. How can the band strive for more if she herself doesn't have faith in us?
She still really don't understand our band. I think she need more to go into and really understand how our band is like. But she herself isn't putting into our attitudes and behaiour, but only in Music Wise. How?

Everything is changing.

Went for Bostion Brass concert after Band. A last minute decision. xD
Same time had to borrow our isntruments. Which means needing to bring our heavy instruments to NUS there.. went for Prata for dinner first..
Thanks nelson for the treat! xD haha
Had to walk a damn long way there.. Super tiring, especially with our instruments lah.. uhh..
Anyway, we took turns carrying it, so had to thank ke xin, nelson, kenneth and wen shuo. Haha
Bag was super heavy, so i exchanged with nelson.. which is like so damn cool. haha
As usual, I didn't regret going.. This is my 2nd time going for Bostion Brass

But had to say that last year's one was a better one with more performance by the Bostion Brass.With entertainment and movements by them, but not this year. Kind of disappointed, but their live performance was a great one, but was a song from the Disc ''Latin Night'' I bought last year..
STC girls and ACS barker boys was there.. Almost the whole of STC band went for it.
Met alexis and Nadia. But se lea didnt go this time..
It was like such a coincidence. Saw michael & the ACS barker band's CM.
Took photos with the Boston Brass performers after that.. As usual of last year.. xD
Haha..

Wasn't taken nicely!! I look retarded =.=

NEL!! This is for you and ur girly twist that alexis said.. haha!!

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Friday, August 14, 2009

I just wished someone can really understand how i feel..

I feel like standing up to scold you or punch you straight to your face.
I thought u would change, and understand because i'm willing to give chances for a change, & i believe everybody can change if they are willing to.
And i still believe..

I promise i will change too.

I won't say much,
But just this..
I am a human too. I hope you understand..

I don't know why people are treating me like this, even my junior says she likes all the senior in the band accept for me and monster just becos i scolded her.. pathetic

I'm tired.. Really tired.. Tired of being strong.. Tired of being strong, & acting as one in front of everybody.. Very tired,& i really feel like giving up.. Really want to.. When can i stop being one?
I just hope to be myself again.. That's all i wish for

Tired of pretending that everything is alright.. Showing others that i'm strong, and i won't fall..
Nobody understands how I feel.. everyday going back home, needing to pretend everything is fine.. Showing them my usual smile.. This is too much to hold..

I know i can still hold on.. But im just afraid that i might just fall anytime.

I feel like crying out loud.

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Sunday, August 9, 2009

SIAN SIAN SIAN.. Today is Sunday already.. So many homework to complete.. Feel like slacking.. =.=
Anyway, just a short post today..

THAT KUAH WEI LONG go pluck out my DOMO-KUN'S EYE yesterday.. [Only after a few hours that it has been brought home..] T_T
Anyway, luckily he had his way to put it back, if not i'll ask him to get another one for me.
Nope,definitely not an eye patch on domo-kun's eye.. definitely not with his SUPER GREAT IDEA WITH USING unused BRA pad as eye patch.. lmao

HAPPY 44TH BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!

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Saturday, August 8, 2009

Super tiring day yesterday..

NDP celebration with E. fair..
Came to school quite early to prepare for stuffs..
The UG program was a super failure.. Super boring.
Tried to entertain ourselves by giving those people stupid questions to answer. haha
With how to handle casualties, and carry them on the stretcher, and they said not to have heir legs dangling down.. So we asked '' So what if the person is too long? their leg.. and the stretcher is too short??'' haha..

Spend most of the E. Fair making ice blends .. Haha.. super fun and tiring.. I have got syrups and ice splashing out at me from the blender.. I was like keep shaking it while doing the ice blends, and when weihong came and asked me not to be so violent.. lols..

In the end i didn't really like went round selling sweets for the string on the box and round my neck, cos i will look damn retarded and paiseh.. haha.. But i forced some of the band juniors to buy them.. Pulled some of them to my stalls.. muhahaha.. Spend most of the time making ice blended, and selling left overs. =P

Was so clumsy for a few times, i almost spilled the whole thing when i poured the ice blend out in a cup.. Spilled out some on the table and on my hand, cos got the ice stuck there.. Damn.. i got laughed by some 4e4 male students & malays.. so paiseh.. haha, but its okay, anyway its quite fun for the 1st time.
But no matter who's the winner , its for charity =) its the fun that we had.
Sand national days songs, and screamed ike some crazy people while celebrating.. haha, that was really fun.. had some train going on.. Screamed like siao..

Went home super tired.. Machiam like 1 month never sleep nice nice..
Slept late past 2 weeks cos staying up late to study for common tests and the last few week waking up early for band stuffs..
Went home and slept from 4pm-8pm. Super shiok..

Today went out with Yiqian to IMM to buy birthday present for Juf which is like a super belated one.. =X
had problems deciding what to buy, and also for yiqian's present for clara.
Bought sushis to eat first, and cotinued shopping.. Finally found something cute & nice! =D

Walked and saw those arcade machines, u know the catch soft toys one?
Yup, suddenly felt so itchy with my hands. Felt like trying.. DOMO-KUN!!
Haha, so borrowed $1 from yiqian for a try, but faileD. And Thats it, temptations..
I was like.. I MUST GET IT!! haha, in the end tried with help from yq and was like ''walao'' thought i coudnt get it, but it dropped unexpectedly!! I realised only after some people behind me said'' got it!'' I was like.. wah? I was so damn happy!! =D First time with this machine and got 1 DOMO-KUN..

Stupid person in charge asked me to give it another try, and i was stupid enough okay..
I got another try and almost got it. And if u didnt see it.. its ALMOST got it.. Anyway $3 for a domo is cheap! =D For the first time i felt that its as if i'm gambling.. Addiction on keep trying and trying.. =p

Went home after that.. Haha, were in the bus talking about lucky with 8/8/09.
Lucky with the Domo-kun and the IMM bus. Cool.. And that's clara's birthday.

HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY TO CLARA TEO!! =DD

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Wednesday, August 5, 2009

YES!!! Common test 3 is finally over!!
Gotten back some of our tests, and really disappointed in my Physics.
Chinese 31/50
English 30/50
S.Physics 18/35

I think i'm going to fail my Geography, and i know..
Okay, spend almost half a day of our lessons doing the Entrepreneurship(?) Fair. So damn wasted.
I almost died inhaling too much of the spray paint odor, and it stinks!! had my hands with gold color paint.. Which is damn cool.. Really.. Almost died will spraying to decor for the banner.. Anyway, i can see that our E. fair will be an unsuccessful one. Tell me, no one can ever come out with great progress and achievement with last minute preparing, and that's what I have learned. Prepare for the unpreparedness. Unless a miracle happens..

Sim card was spoiled yesterday.. Have to thank mum for being such a kind soul to help me replace a new one at Vivo City outlet.. Didn't expect her to do so.. If not i wouldn't be able to contact anyone, and i'll definitely die without my phone for a week.

Had Chem tutorial today, and its really fun. hahah.. Like doing Balance chemical equations, so fun.. Agar math like that.. haha. Had so many jokes with ms siti, and she doesn't know what is noob!! haha! Random.. I drank cappucinno today! =D

Blah.. I realise i've been complaining too much nowadays.. Really want to say sorry to Brenda. I guess its time already.. She care about the band so much,even after she step down, she will still have me to keep her updated, and that I know I shouldn't be telling her so much stuffs.. I guess the best way is, i'll just have to pretend nothing happened because i want her to concentrate on her Os. She take band as part of her life, but not for me.. I just don't know how to see myself as.

Dunno what's wrong with me, i just can't stand it.. Makes me so irritated and annoyed. Or is it because lack of sleep? I guess so too.. Have been sleeping late nowadays, and I think it'll soon become a habit.. >.< Have to try sleeping early from today onwards! If this carry on, it'll do no good to me..

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Tuesday, August 4, 2009

Had E math and History test yesterday.. totally screwed it.. Especially math.. =X Well, let's not talk about it.. Anyway, Mr chong was kind enough to potpone social studies test to tomorrow.. ^^Art lesson were super boring .. YES and DRY.. seriously, i almost fell asleep when mr pek was talking.. Just couldn't get my eyes to open..-.-

Had band practice yesterday.. Tutors came today again.. Most probably their last day in KRSB.
Really sad that our tutor aaron is leaving already.. =(
With only about 3 practices with us.. Have to say that he is really a very nice and friendly guy.He is really very patient with us, and that's what I call a good musician and instructor.. Unlike some. He's like the nicest tutor i've ever met..
I heard his tone while he played on enrik's tuba, and it's beautiful.. The nicest tone i've ever heard close up. And now i really now how to differentiate it.
I guess i still haven't seen it all.. All I can say that he is talented like what mr wong said.. ^^

Asked me to practice on songs myself while he work on the sec 1 Tubist, but taught me on The Flight Of The Piasa after.
Now i know, actually not everything that my senior had taught me was correct. I only realised that i was WRONG after 2 and a half years in the band?!! and ONLY after Aaron came and teach me.. OMG, i can't believe that i had this mistake ever since then.. I was really surprised after he taught me on the eupho Solo part.. I realised that i learn better when there's someone to sing to me on the rhythm and parts, and he's the right person.

It's such a pity that i weren't able to learn much from him.. Was really SURPRISED to know that it was his last day with us. Going to states to further his studies for around 4 years.. and that's.. really LONG to me. I was like.. What?! He's leaving us already?! T_T

I don't know why.. But he kind of left me with a very good, deep and unforgettable impression?
Really sad that he is leaving.. I really look up on him a lot, a very professional player, and a really nice and patient guy..Now i have another role player to look up to! I shall work towards it! haha,i don't know why am i saying so much good stuff about him, but it feels like i kind of like him or what? crush? haha
But i bet its normal to think that way when u look up to someone that has much more good points than u, talented and u look up to..
Chatted for awhile before he left. Asked me to add him in facebook. He was like. ''okay,hope to see you guys maybe somewhere, some place, whenever in the few years time.'' OMG, and i can't believe that some parent's would actually ban their child from using the comp for 3 years!! other than projects!! What kind of teaching and education is this?!! I felt pity for Enrik..

Hah.. I was really glad he told me before leaving so.. I was like.. keep shouting when he walked half way as he leave..'' Thank you!!, Thank you for coming! Good luck!!''
Its like, can't bear to let him go? lol..

But after thinking, i did make another friend! Anyway, we still can contact each other on facebook! But don't you think so that it's such a coincidence? to have a tutor that is a sec school band junior of my previous instructor?
Well, strangers are just friends u have not met!

Well, but i felt sorry for the percussion tutor, having to tolerate percussion section's nonsense, rubbish and atrocious behavior.. He might have gotten a very bad impression of our band..
Well, till now they still doesn't know how to appreciate people and stuffs, but i know for the future, they will regret it.
I just felt that it's a pity, and they shld be glad to have such an extreme and professional Gay tutor like him.. =X

Anyway.. Wish aaron all the best.. good luck on his studies!
Okay.. having SS test tomorrow.. going off! bye!! =D

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Saturday, August 1, 2009

Went for 2nd Sis 21st Birthday Chalet yesterday..
Super tired after everything or maybe because after letting off my stress with about 5 laps round the swimming pool.. Fun since i've not swam for abt 2 years+.. But i still have my techinque remained to be able to hold 30 secs of breath.. hahah .. That's what we call ''Band Member".

Many people came.. So the chalet was full of kids and people. Super noisy..
All along, i guess i was the only one entertaining and playing with the kids lah.. Tolerating their nonsense. But during this hours, all i did was going around and eating.. haha
Didn't manage to help with BBQ-ing.. Aunties were doing all the jobs. Definitely must thank them & mum for helping lor..

Sister's BF brought Light Sticks for the kids to play outside.. Sobs and I gave away my Blue light stick to the baby and had my green light stick stolen by my cousin!! =.=''
AND!! Sis even prepared for the kids goodie bags!! I want also dun have leh.. lol

Time passes really quickly and ended off with cutting of birthday cake and group photos..
Didnt really had much yesterday but was really tiring.. Super tiring..
Slept at arnd 12am+ last night and can't believe i woke up at arnd 2.15pm today.. >.<" Maybe will upload photos on facebook..

Having 3 common tests on Monday.. Headache.. >_<'' Going to die badly
-E Math
-Social studies
-History

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