Friday, July 24, 2009
Haaahhh... IM BACK!!
Got so stressed up today again.. Because of some stupid stuffs.
Lessons were really very short today.. Had chinese common test and even though i didn't study much.. I thought that it's quite easy, but who knows easy might become hard*.. Hope i do well for it!
Common tests are starting next week.. and I'm kind of like ARGHH!! SO much things to do..
I didn't even finish doing my art today.. Just wasted like 1 & half hrs?? I don't know..
Math is totally (yes!! yes!! 5more mins!!) cos i'm damn tired.. >.<
Went for band practice.. As usual, got nagged and insulted again. Got used to it -.-
Learned lots of lots of theory stuffs today. FUN! But i still seriously miss those days.
Had a huge misunderstanding and problem today.. Got scolded until.. =.='' Ahh.. forget it!
Reached home at arnd 7pm.. i heard ''ring'', ''ring'', ''ring''.. and ICE CREAM!!
Suddenly felt kind of low.. Tempted to have some ice cream.
I still miss those childhood days where i'll go down with my sisters, cousins for some ice cream after games..
Now it feels so.. ALone & lonely
it feels so sad.
Just received the NCO camp Drum mjaor course consent form yesterday and know what..
IM SO EXCITED FOR IT!! But.. Its in November.. =.= 4 more months to go..
Hope that I can get to go for OBS too!!
I seriously miss them a lot..
Friday, July 17, 2009
Disappointment..I don't feel too strong.. Why? I feel like crying out loud.
I felt so restless..
Turn me into a robot with no emotions & affections, and everything will be free and happy..
I wouldn't need to care and think about so much.
Sometimes, I really felt as though I am not even fit to be a leader..
I don't feel like myself, and I don't think I lead well..
I want to be myself, I like to be myself, but I want to change them..
I thought Discipline means a lot to me..
Since there is no law and order in the band, I will make laws and order for them..
I want nothing back, but a change in their attitudes.. Disappointment is what i hate most..
But I realized that I am still as dependent on others as before.
Nothing changed.
Instead, i felt more .. Restless after everything has changed.
I lost my confidence on almost everything in band.. Nothing seems to be in hand. nothing seems to be right..
I've got no way to get back.
Even after a short day.. I heard the words.. the phrases.
I don't look forward to Monday's Band Practice. I thought, I did rather go for tutorials..
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
Suddenly felt like blogging..
This is the only one way where i can let my feelings out..
I'M SO TIRED!!!!!!!!!!!!! really really tired..I'm tired of homework. Sick & tired of these people. Tired of listening..
I wanna stop somewhere.. Go to my lala land~..
Sorry,I hardly say this but.. I CAN'T STAND IT ANYMORE!! NO MORE OF IT PLEASE!
That stupid and idiotic b!tch is really making me so sick and tired of it.. Damn.. she is making me so difficult to concentrate on my studies lah!! Jus by looking at her makes me wanna puke.. Feel like asking her to shut her super damn fat mouth okay.. And trust me, its true. She is a crazy woman.
It just makes me so irritated and annoyed.. Really makes me so disgusted.
Everybody knows i get irritated and annoyed easily by unreasonable and idiotic people and reasons.. and that's the reason! PLease the hell..
Change the Seating arrangement!!Homework are piling up.. I'm okay with it. yeah!! No stress No fear
Emotions are driving me nuts. I think i need a stabilizer.I think i may fall anytime..
Short tempered due to lack of sleep?
I'm Random & so...
I don't like math and hate doing it.But please get me to do it and love it.
Can anyone be so kind enough to be my personal tutor to teach me math for FOC? I'll be really greatful if i can have.. haha..
Okay,i know its impossible.
Currently taking some free time to sell some taiwan imported clothes..
The computer is having a bad mood today and i wanna say hi-5!
Unable to upload photos into computer with phone.. =.=
Anyone interested with the taiwan clothes, u can look for me!
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
| What is your True Fear? Your Result: Losing Someone You love affection and the people in your life more than anything. Your greatest fear is that one day someone you care about won't be there anymore. You are a very friendly and inviting person, who draws in a lot of friendships with your kind, considerate, and loyal nature. However, deep down you are slightly insecure and unsure of yourself. You couldn't deal with it if you didn't have one of your loved ones in your life anymore. You don't have too much to worry about though, because with a friend like you, no one will want to lose you either! |
| Being Alone | |
| Death | |
| Disappointment | |
| Where Your life is Going | |
| Looked down on | |
| Commitment | |
What is your True Fear?
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Went for BBQ with some band members and ex-seniors yesterday to west coast park! Haha.. So long since i went for a BBQ.. Had a super tiring and kinda fun day..
Luckily it stopped raining by 6pm! Started barbecuing and blah.. Cracking jokes all..
Ants and mosquitoes all around are making me so eeeeeww...
Went to Brenda house to finish the album before going there.. Helping out.. Made really childish and kind of Unglam cards for Mr wong and Ms Tan.. Erm.. but hope they like it! I am really going to miss them lots and lots.. =( And i'm telling the truth..
Practices without them would sure be boring.. That special event ; band practices that i always look forward to, will not be the same anymore without Mr Wong and Ms Tan. I really hope that i can adapt to the changes. I will not only miss them.. But the sec 4s too..
But had lots of fun and laughter yesterday..
Really hope to see them again.
Woke up with reluctance today.. So damn tired and sleepy after yesterday. I was trying all my best to keep my eyes opened big during Mr Lee's chinese lesson.. I almost went ZZZzzz.. The class is too quiet for me to stay awake.. Hais..
Didn't manage to finish my math homework as i came back home late late yesterday..
Haha. My mum were really happy to hear about how tasty and nice the bee hoon and curry
that she cooked, from Mr Wong,Ms Tan and the others.. But ,i still had to bring home the leftovers in the end.. =.=
I tried, to not think so much. I showed them my smile, my laughter.. But deep down inside me, i don't know what i'm thinking about.. But i felt so insecure about some stuffs.. Disappointment is what i hate most..
Friday, July 3, 2009
Tired.. I really want to escape from all these things..So tired.. Really tired..I have to say.. I love Wednesday and Friday!! Changing of Timetable made lesson on Wednesday and Friday lighter for me.. But I guess I'll have Monday Blues.. = (
Celebrated Claire's Birthday yesterday! Happy sixteenth for her!! Orea cheese cake was delicious! Yum Yum!
Made me thought of going Baking Zine for some cakies!!
New teacher for PE, Mr Chia.. Something funny happened yesterday..
He accidentally tripped over his bag, and I were the only first person who laughed out loud when he tripped, & that he looked at me and pointed out and said
''Dun laugh ahh"Haha!! In the end the whole class laughed.. hahah.. so funny..Push ups and running have become a torture for me without months of exercises.. But its a new start!! WOhoo!!
Mr Koh SL helped me to take my height & weight, and i didn't grow at all!! ARGH! i shrunk and i grew 1cm back agn.. = (
I was like ''OMG'' when .. I've gained like 3 kg after the holidays.. Almost died, but oh well..
Actually it doesnt affect me much, and i don't really care.. Like what maywen said.. Haha.
I don't know what's with my appetite of eating a lot sometimes, and can like skip 2 meals a day when i'm upset about something, or don't feel like eating.. But Anger makes me fat.
After school waited outside the bandroom with bel and keegan for band band band ROOM KEY!!
So pek cek.. Mr pek saw us and gave me and bel a lecture not to have a gathering.
He told bel.
" Don't let the band members gather around. The band was the first to get HFMD, and i don't want the band be the first to get up of H1N1 too okay'' This is so damn lame.. Like so zhun meh? H1N1.. Before u said so then its not so zhun lor, but maybe after u said so about it, then it'll come true lor..
Waited outside band room and chatted for awhile wif bel and gan.. Gave up on waiting for them =.=..
Went to westcoast plaza instead to buy the shaped papers instead. Paid for it, and once again, i owe my mum $8 when i've just returned her $10.. =.=''
I feel so broke nowadays.. Hais!!
$_$Oh ya, Thanks Keegan for the Bubble Tea! hehe
I can't wait for MONDAY!! yeah!! Before that, I need to finish my homework first.. x_x
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
Holiday has ended. Here's another new term, new start.. But.. I'm still in a holiday mood. What should i do?
Have been having Free periods for almost half a day, and our precious lessons are totally wasted.. I'm almost bored to death, but luckily i managed to keep myself entertained with some lame games with classmates.
Just recently started with chemical formulas, cation & ions.. Interesting in memorizing he formulas, and element symbols.. I'm waiting for more..
Award's Day rehearsal for tomorrow is canceled.. oh great, and award's day is postponed! Why!! For what i thought that Saturday will be the day, and that's it.. Now for that, we'll have to worry more, and lesser time for national day performance..
Oh great, i just remembered that i have not finished doing my math homework.. Hais.. Sian..
Yesterday came back late after Award's Day full dress rehearsal.. And it was horrible. I got scolded by the teachers so many times, and got nagged so many times.. Got so pek cek.. Almost died.
So tired until i could just lie down on my Sofa and sleep after i came back, but instead, i persisted to finish up my geography homework until 11.30pm.. Sleepy sleepy for today.. >_<
I still can't bear to let go, & i don't look forward to the new .. Why
