Saturday, February 27, 2010
I feel like blogging.. Even though i just did it last night.
Realised that my post was never once a happy one? If u realise it, then congrats..
I feel so upset now.. I don't know what to do.
Yeah, and i finally found out today that i am actually not important to the band nor ms tan yh at all.
I realised that going for band practice and handling the band was much much more important than my health to ms tan yh yeah..
It shows HOW important i am to the band, but i am super upset about it because it shows how dependent they are on me, and i am just a someone in the band. But not as important even if i die of sickness or whatsoever. (Sarcasm)
I'm like the stabilizer, and the medicine for the band lah..
She is SICK! and i hate her.
She scolded and talked bad about me in front of the whole band that i have a medical appointment yesterday when i wasn't around, and saying that she is so disappointed in me and whatsoever and hates me why can't i put it on other days.
She did not even say anything about her not going for band..
I think I owe my life to her.. Seriously, even if i die.
She blames it on me for every single thing. TOTALLY, her every single word and actions disgust me.
I told Brenda last night on MSN after she told me that the band was totally crazy and in a chaos yesterday when i wasn't around that I kept my promise.
I complained to how horrible my life is in band after all of you and the teachers left.
I did not give up even though both of them gave up, it was because of the promise i made with her and my ex-conductors.
I tolerated all of their stupid nonsense.
I wonder, will all my efforts be worth it after i step down?
I don't know.
I heard complaints from xf and wenhao during Mrs Tan chem tutorial today.
It totally spoils my mood.
What can i do with the complaints?
Mrs Tan saw how bad it was and asked me about it, but i didnt say much.
My blood boils whenever i talk about it.. RAWR!!!
