I don't feel too strong.. Why? I feel like crying out loud. I felt so restless.. Turn me into a robot with no emotions & affections, and everything will be free and happy.. I wouldn't need to care and think about so much.
Sometimes, I really felt as though I am not even fit to be a leader.. I don't feel like myself, and I don't think I lead well.. I want to be myself, I like to be myself, but I want to change them.. I thought Discipline means a lot to me..
Since there is no law and order in the band, I will make laws and order for them.. I want nothing back, but a change in their attitudes.. Disappointment is what i hate most.. But I realized that I am still as dependent on others as before. Nothing changed.
Instead, i felt more .. Restless after everything has changed. I lost my confidence on almost everything in band.. Nothing seems to be in hand. nothing seems to be right..
I've got no way to get back. Even after a short day.. I heard the words.. the phrases. I don't look forward to Monday's Band Practice. I thought, I did rather go for tutorials..
Disappeared @ 9:09 PM ♥
ME! ♥
Linda Khor
25october94
KRSS 1e8'07,2e8'08,3e9,4e9
KentRidge Symphonic Band
